It sunk in quick and fast all while standing in line at Wal-Mart of all places.
Today will be the last day that I will have an empty home while my children are at school for the next 2 years!!!!!
How could that be? May not seem like a big deal but suddenly my momentary panic was coming to a full blown anxiety attack right there in the checkout line. My thoughts flooded with all kinds of emotions that started something like this:
“Today is the last day for Cooper to be in preschool before he graduates to Kindergarten. Holy crap, today is the last day that I will have an empty house while the kids are at school. Wow, how exciting to have a little one around again and my home won’t be empty. Crap my home won’t be empty how on earth am I going to be able to do this all over again? Well, at least we get to experience our wonderful preschool again. Preschool? Oh my gosh…weren’t we just getting used to the idea that we were ready to move past this stage? Graduation? Really? How could that be? Is Cooper even old enough to graduate? Surely, Parker was a lot older when this happened for her? Aw, but he’ll be at the same school as his sister. What a great experience for both of them! Did I take the time to soak up all the moments I should have? How is it possible that I am even old enough to have a 3rd grader, kindergartener and now a newborn…..oh crap that’s right….”
And then the anxiety attack came full circle as I finished right where I started and just in time for the cashier to pull me back from my dazed, confused and drooling state:
“Crap, today is the last day that I will have an empty house for the next 2 years.”
If You give a mouse a cookie has nothing on me! So here’s to hormones, pregnant or not. Cameras are charged for the big event, tissues will be on high demand and mascara will most likely be optional. But one thing is for sure, tears or no tears, panic attacks or no panic attacks. I am one proud momma…..just don’t let the red puffy eyes tell you otherwise!
“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”