Saturday, June 30, 2012

Small Corners

There is a small corner in our bedroom that has been repurposed time and time again throughout our marriage. Dresser for me, armoire that no longer fits in the kid’s room, extra storage, an extra chair with the idea that mommy may have a quiet space to read or do quiet times in the morning, exercise machine, co-sleeper with baby #1, exercise machine repurposed to a “clothes hanger”, work desk where I started 1derfully Made and put vinyl on just about anything that wouldn’t move, back to just an armoire and extra storage and finally….a “nursery” for baby #3.

Once we started telling friends and family that we were expecting the unexpected, many reactions were similar:

 “Where will you put her?”
“Are you going to move?”

Their concerns were valid and were ones that we had already played out in our own heads. However, if I am learning anything during this pregnancy, it’s that small corners return big blessings.

I have often prayed for burning bushes and larger than life events when really it is in the quiet moments and small corners that God speaks to us the most. Today I was not expecting fireworks or burning bushes but rather just a regular standard ultrasound to check the baby and measure the fluid around her body. I was lying on the table trying desperately to make out anything I could on the large screen in front of me and wishing I could see more. I have felt her move and have watched my ever expanding waistline grow over these very short months. I have now even sat through more ultrasounds than I had with my first 2 children and yet I still can’t wrap my brain around the idea that any of this is really happening, especially in a matter of 2 weeks or less!

But then in a quiet moment while watching the blurred gray and white figure on the screen, it all instantly changed. There she was staring back at me! It was as if she appeared out of nowhere.

The ultrasound tech switched the image from the regular view to the 4D (something I never had done with either of my first 2 children). I am still in awe of her image and her chubby little cheeks. Where did she come from and how did she get there and what on earth was God thinking when he gave us this crazy, overwhelming, immeasurable blessing?

The small corner in my heart that always felt like my dinner table was missing someone will now have an extra chair. The small corner of our room that always seemed to be the catch all with no real purpose has been given its sole purpose. The small corners of our home that we thought couldn’t fit anymore into has now grown by leaps and bounds to accommodate another blessing. The small corner of my heart that I thought could never make room to love another one as much as I love my first 2 children has been proven wrong. The flood gates were broken and have been overflowing since the sight of her face.

So do I blame my friends for their concerns and questions? Absolutely not. Would grand gestures and a large home be the natural next step for many to assume that we would make in order to create space for this new little one? Possibly, but instead I like to think that God is working on filling the small and simple corners that are already right in front of us.

Thank you Jesus for taking the small corners of our lives and filling each of them with your presence. We know that even our smallest corners do not go unnoticed from your sight and your plan is so much greater than anything we could want for ourselves!


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